DAY 33 DETOX POEM: THE FAMILY GLUE

No one talks about how the last born child is the spiritual/psychological glue in the family

Recent tragic events occurred in my family that’s been testing whether I will forsake my journey to save myself in order to save some others. I am passing the tests, recognizing the patterns, and (of course) transmuting the energy of the lessons with reflective writing.

Here is what I wrote quickly before I slept last night:

THE FAMILY GLUE

I watched how my eldest sister,

mixed with resentment and love,

cared and provided for us younger siblings.

Bound at the hands

that were still developing

by the chains of a duty —

enslaved to an assignment —

not her own.

But those hands would not keep us together.

They could only nourish our bodies

with food prepared.

Those hands wrote songs she would sing to our souls.

Pass down clothes and relationship notes.

But, woefully no, she could not hold the weighty shards.

The fragmented pieces of our hearts

were increasingly more jagged and too sharp.

Our mother wounds cut deep.

So I, the last born of many miraculous mistakes,

became a resource of relief.

I sacrificed my inner peace

to absorb their toxic turmoil

transmute and levitate it to enlightened comedy.

Cuz if you don’t laugh, you’re gonna cry.

I was the spiritual glue that kept vibrations high.

The psychological glue that battled for them

against narcissistic abuse.

And it worked till my bottle ran dry.

Till I looked into the reflections of rejection

And saw my efforts were merely a projection

A sad deflection to my own need for protection.

So I dissolved my glue from each sinew.

I watched to see if they’d get a clue

That it takes more than two

to keep tangoing in this large group.

Instead, our pieces drifted and grifted

further apart

to get lost in the dark.

It ain’t easy finding the will to be the glue

to sustain what doesn’t improve.

For now, time is mute.

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